SIGHTS: Solipsist ~~ Henry Rollins
SOUNDS: The Best of Siouxsie and the Banshees

I know I made a great mistake. I feel like a soldier who went to the jungle thinking that he was on the right side, fighting the good fight. Now I see that I gave a lot of years and a lot of blood to weak fools and leeches. They have since come back to try to break me. Little do they know how strong the years have made me.

I’m allergic. My face is all broken out in red splotches and I’m all itchy. Wahhh! I knew this when I got the dog. I’ve always been allergic. Not as bad now as when I was younger. My eyes used to swell shut and I would look Asian. Once I got this bubble membrane over one of my eyes from being around a cat. I HATE, HATE, HATE THIS!!! I’m keeping the dog though. I will just have to take allergy meds every day. I couldn’t bear to take Oz away from the kids or myself.

Today my right eye looks like somebody popped me one, my whole face itches and I’m supposed to go out tonight. Not to mention the still-healing hole in my upper lip...heh. Actually, I’m supposed to leave at 4:00. The girl who gave us the dog, I’ll call her Benatar, sings in a band and she needed some moral support and constructive criticism so she asked me to come along. Like I’m a musical expert or something. Me...Miss. Eager To Please. I’m thinking I will just have to pretend I hate her while she is on stage because I’m so not good at criticizing people I like.....constructive or not. Guess I could wear my Velma glasses, bring a little notebook and pen and pretend I’m a music critic...heh. I’ll be Miss. Music Reviewer and then whisk off my glasses to be Supporto-Gal! Just like Superman! I’m really looking forward to it though. It’s been SO long since I’ve been to a bar/club. It’s going to be a loooong night though. Going with the band means you have to be there through set up and tear down and since I am riding with them, who knows when I will get home. Will definitely have to pace the drinking. I will at least have to have a couple to swallow down my social anxiety with.

I just hope I will be able to help Benatar out. She has been losing faith in herself on the singing front, even though she has been doing this for seven years. I guess there were some drunken assholes giving her a hard time the last time they played and it really bothered her. She has also been worried because she isn’t able to hit the notes that she used to. She realizes it is age’s way of kicking us all in the ass but it’s still bothering her. I told her to take a listen to old Stevie Nicks music and her newer stuff and she will see that it happens to even the VERY BEST of us. She, like so many, is her worst critic though so this is going to be tough. I think that even if I think she truly kicks ass, I’m going to have to think of something critical to tell her or she’ll think I’m lying.

Now I just have to find something to wear...ugh!...and hope these splotches go away. Somebody wish me luck!